Guess what? There's a bunny somewhere in my house! I saw it earlier, but lost it and now it's who knows where... I think it jolted in when someone had the door open >>;. It's been around for more than a week, but I didn't realize it until now... Bunnyyy ^^;.

I bought a new mic today. It was a $53 dollar mic, the best Best Buy had... But SOMEHOW I got like half off! How insanely sweet is that??? Yus... Yus yus...

Join one of my blogrings! ...

-Stares at you-

brandon

Today could be big... And so could tomorrow... Sundays can never really be big, unless there's school off the next monday. Blarg. I might go to a concert, or I might go to see constantine... But I dunno. I'll have to see what my parents are willing to let me do...

And I'm really hungry! No, like, extremely hungry! Like, ATTENTIONALLCRAISEEGONAUTSPLEASEEQUIPALLFUZZGI GGLYPODSATONCEANDREPORTTOTHESECTORIMMEDIATELYly hungry. I'm serious! Not kidding at all! So... I guess I should get something edible to... Eat... ...On. Yeah.

...

Nah. But I will however change the background and music and profile pic! Back to the wallflowers :D. *[Edit: Just kidding o.o;.]* Yayyy.

This week was just same old...

Laterationnesz.

brandon

Thanks for the comments too! I haven't had under 16 eprops in like 3 or four posts... Insanee.

Wow, after the talent show, hardly anything else seems worth talking about, lol... I'm at a loss for words.

-shrugs and runs away-

brandon

However, do mind that Day In Reignition's (me and Emily's acoustic/piano project) purevolume site will be up soon, if it's not already... http://www.purevolume.com/dayinreignition. See yaaa...

brandon

...Oh and, thanks much for the comments... I really don't think we deserved so much, but thank you very much :).

-walks away singing to himself-

brandon

The background represents a broken-handed clock...

Things are turning out well - The talent show rehersal yesterday was pretty good, despite the fact my face was turning every shade of red; Hahah. Youth band practice went well too, I got to sing this time!

Hah, in youth band, we were singing this boring old hymn, and I started making my voice all hardcore singing and stuff. Then everyone gave me bad looks, one at a time xD. Except my friends (But there's like nine people in this 'band'! Retarded, but James [cool youth pastor] is gonna split it into two bands). But yeah, lol, it was funny. I got to beatbox on the mic too, while they were discussing instrumental stuff. Buahah.

Then youth group came right afterwards, where we had a party and tons of food for completing our purity study... So yeah, it was fun stuff.

Mmm... I can't do it captain... I don't have the power!

-vanishes-

brandon

Thanks so much guys... Thank you. Merci. Yayyy...

Tomorrow I'm staying after school for talent show rehersals. Then, right after that I'm going to china. Not really; to youth band practice. Then youth group, where we're having a big party for finishing our purity study :). Funness. But... I probably won't have time to post... Oh well, I've had longer breaks between posts, heheh.

And on friday I'm staying after school to help with the art thing... Then after that the talent show... The Talent Show... Wow. ...

brandon

...?!?!?!?

This weekend... sucked. Honestly. Other than the food - I got to eat at fuddruckers and zarda. Sooo good. But yeah... My friend couldn't come to write the emo/reggae song... And I did basically nothing all weekend... But I did get twweeentyschwenty bucks from one of the easter eggs in my BASKET! So exciting.

Oh, my gosh. Hostess hoppers... Withsupersprinkles. It's so exciting. I just... Can't explain how exciting that is to me.

Oh. Ohohoh. Me and Emily decided we're gonna try to start a band. We've already made a song... She wrote it, but I'll make some piano parts to go with it, and sing as well. It doesn't have a name, but our band does - Maybe just temporary, but for now it's Day In Reignition. As soon as we get our first song onto an mp3, we're gonna make a site on purevolume.com and post it there :D. Ah yes, and I doubt anyone will use it, but the band's e-mail is dayinreignition@decidel.com.

I'm so happeh... And tired, so umm... -Flails and flies away-

brandon

Hm. And tomorrow, me and my friend are hanging out and writing the emo/reggae song. Woooo...

I think it's strange, the more I hang out with someone new in my life, I like adapt some of their personality traits... Not purposely, just like... Yeah. It's pretty odd. Egh, but schwatevers.

-vanishes from all... sight... and place... stuff-

brandon

OHBYZEVAY thanks a ton, you g.. Gi... People have been giving me a lot of comments. I appreciate it lotsss... <3.

Yesterday was:

The day the milk expired... all 3 half-gallons of it.

The first day I've ever tried out for a talent show.

The day me and a friend decided we are gonna hang out and write an emo/reggae song! HAHAH!

The day of band practice this week.

The longest I've ever stayed at the school building after school had ended.

The first time I've gotten a verbal comment on my singing voice.

END

...Not the end of the post of course. Just the... Flabby yesterday list.

In the talent show thing, I'll be singing along with my friend emily - she's playing guitar, too. We're doing Taking Back Sunday - Your Own Disaster. Fun stuff...

So yeah, the emo/reggae song! BAHAH! Isn't that like... An oxymoron? Hah, I think it is. It's gonna be funny... I wrote the lyrics this morning, and the song is called "As Sorrow Ends, May The Bleeding Begin." I would post the lyrics, but we haven't recorded it yet... I won't in fear that someone might steal them >>;. Sorry if that seems untrusting, lol.

Hm... Later.

brandon

P.S.: Will someone join one of my blogrings? They're lonely right now .

Eeh... I'm just mellow again. If it hadn't been raining last night, and I hadn't had a friend over, I definitely would've snuck out to walk by that big four-lane road we kansans like to call 127th street. There's something about twos and sevens that, when combined, make anything look special and fancy. Hee, maybe I should put that in my next xanga username... Not that I'm planning to get a new one. But nah, numbers are ghey in usernames... Unless typed out... Yeah.

Meep ^_^.

Your Thinkkaman,
                         brandon

                                      bored
       Depressed

                                                               SICK of LIFE

                   DULL

                                                FUCKED UP.

...

Well, at least this is a little bit of relief... http://www.deviantart.com/view/13922325/

x)... Tch.

brandon

Yes that's right kids. Strangle Bobrt and you could win an awesome Grebrt plushie for free!

FDIONFIRDFOIANEKLJSBut you'll regret such action once I've torn your body to shreds; limb from limb, muscle from bone. You will suffer my wrath, SHOULD YOU DISTURB MY FUCKING SLEEP.

†Bobrt

Tee-Hee? o.o;

brandon

Retarded post. Go look at my old xanga, see how much cooler I used to be... http://www.xanga.com/saber_mage. Use ctrl+A to make it easier to read. Eh... Dang. DANG DANG dang. Freaking deaking dang.

So that was special... Eh. I was supposed to hang out with someone, but her mother got all evil n' stuff. I was gonna have someone spend the night too, but for whatever reason that have homework over spring break -_-;. Oh vhell...

Sh'anyfanymanyways, I have to go ask if I can hang out with someone... The answer *edit: was yes*, but oh well... But, yeah! Laturrr.

brandon

(P.S./Edit: As nice as care-free may seem, it's not a good thing. It's not happy either; it's avoiding and being oblivious to reality... Egh...)

http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw01.jpg This and the next couple pics are at the very beginning, where all I did was my eyes. Fun fun :D.

http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw02.jpg
http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw03.jpg
http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw04.jpg
http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw05.jpg
http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw06.jpg
http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw07.jpg
http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw08.jpg
http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw09.jpg
http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw10.jpg
http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw11.jpg
http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw12.jpg
http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw13.jpg
http://www.decidel.com/FaceDraw14.jpg

These redder ones are without the flash.

Next, obviously I put sharpie on my lips.

Then the extra addons and more black tears... I look high xD.

And after that, I just had fun with it all xD. Once again, I look high lol.

Funneh face x).

Aaand that's it.

Hahah, yeah. Sh'anyways, I've wanted to do that for quite a while now. My mom's pissed but oh wells. The sharpie is paint based, so it comes off skin real easily. But it made my face feel all sticky >.<;. Oh vhell...

Au revoir et adieu .

brandon

(DANG I got a lot of comments on the last one o.o. Thank youuu ^^.)

Last night was fun. Two of my buds spent the night, and another friend of mine came over for a while. (Woah my fly's unzipped...) Aaanyways. So yeah, it was fun I guess, until like 2 a.m. when I wasn't tired, and my other two friends were practically asleep. They snapped out of it though... We realleh didn't go to bed until 5 or 6 >>;. Bleh; it smells like a mix of smoke, fire, candles, and cologne down here ><;.

And so today... We did stuff, annnd... Okay, we found this dead plant in my backyard. Well, one of hundreds, but this one's parts were like tubes... So, we cut some off, burnt an end, and sucked it in to blow the smoke out xD. Or rather, I did. They didn't want to because it actually did smell like a cig... Pretty crazy. BUUUT yeah, there's no tobacco, and I didn't inhale it, so no worries :). Just gave me a bad taste n' my breath probably kinda smells like cigarettes now, lol...

So, shmeh. Now I'm just sittin' here, typing up this entry. Or finishing typing it. Eeeh, see you all later :).

brandon

...

Heheh, have I overdone it? My thoughts are getting deeper... Brandon's sanity and happiness is about to fall in pieces again soon, he knows it >>;.

^ My Jones Soda fortune for today.

... I wonder... If that has anything to do with the talent show...

Eh, hi. My name is brandon. I'm a fool who's not so cool and sometimes sits on stools but never sleeps and drools. Voila!

brandon

***ATTENTION ALL CRAISEEGONAUTS: EQUIP YOUR FUZZGIGGLY PODS AT ONCE AND REPORT TO THE SECTOR IMMEDIATELY.***

Bahah xD.

People, please don't use this as a ch... Blegh. Why do I care? The main reason I use my xanga is to get my feelings out and to express my artistic side... Still --;.

brandon

I will tremble a prayer

And I will beg for forgiveness

I can play the intro to this song on my keyboard ^^. Yaynesz!

brandon

brandon

brandon

But yeah, anyways. I found this pretty cool emo / indie band (from OLATHE! Kansas!) called The Triumph Music. They don't have many vocals at all but they're pretty cool. Check 'em out at thisonelinkything http://www.thetriumphmusic.com . Doesn't that make you feel special..?

I guess so.

BUAHAHAH. YEAH! So, I got a tatoo as well! It's one of those temporary ones but tis cool. It's a long dagger with a rose and a rose vine wrapping around it... And I put it on my neck ^^. I love it. My mom is anti-tatoo and doesn't understand why people, I quote, mutilate themselves with them. LOL... Egh. But yep.

Yayyy!

I need to shave my fuzz e.e;. <3 Mon cheveux. (my hair ^^)

See ya later. :)

brandon

Ok here's the story. Chillin Cherry Chad was walkin' down all bad, and suddenly he sees a pond in front of him, yo. Suddenly. So he jumps in the pond to chill. While he's swimmin', he sees the Lifeless Limes of Limadia floating to the top. He figures they're swimming to get some air, so he just keeps on chillin' at rock bottom, dawg. Err... The pond starts draining and...

I'll have to finish it later, lol.

Ooh, idea. I challenge you all to ask me questions that you wanna know the answers to, and each time I see a new one, I'll add the answer to this post, k? K, 'tis settled.

brandon

Question Answers:

1 - Yes I pray to god that I will come see you, and someday very soon!

2 - Err... Of course >>;

3 - I *want* to... But that wasn't the question. I hope to... I'll try to. A lot of times it's easier for me to open up to someone after I've hung out with them outside of school somehow... Without all the other people I don't want around. Egh...

...I sigh.

brandon

Ehh. I got my bangs cut... I hate it >_<. I want them baaaack...

Tonight was another of those hellish nights... Y'know, where I cry and am all depressed. I haven't taken my gummi bears all weekend though... Egh. The weekend sucked, too. Not to complain, just telling you how it went.

brandon

Spell your first name backwards]: Nodnarb

[The story behind your user name]: Egh... It was a random name I came up with to go by online (over games etc.), which was saber mage. Thus I earned the nicknames sabe and saber over time... Protecting... Stuff :).

[How old?]: 15

[4 words that sum you up]: Shy (sadly), Childlike, Wise(?), Caring

Describe Your:

[Wallet]: Tan leather with a striped stitching. On the front is a Canadian leaf... Got it straight from Canada :).

[Hairbrush]: Ehh... Sad that I have one but... Blue with black bristles.

[Jewelry worn daily]: Black necklace with leather... Circles and metal spheres/chunks. Metal ring with a polar bear on it and shiny green/red/blue strips of color representing the northern lights.

[Pillow cover]: Don't... Really have a "my" pillow.

[Coffee cup]: Ewgh >_<.

[Shoes]: NEW. Heheh. Black, gum-bottomed Fallens.

[Cologne/Perfume]: BODMAN!

[CD in stereo right now]: 3 Different stereos I use... Warped Tour 2003 stage 1 (Emily's) / Jimmy Eat World: Futures / The Tokyo Smash: The Scene Queen Reigns Supreme EP.

[Piercings]: ...A healed up one on my right earlobe.

[What you are wearing now]: Tan/Greenish Macgear pants, (shoes), DC shoe co. shirt, Escapist skateboarding hoody, new beanie my friend in Texas sent me recently.

[Hair]: All short except my sideburns and bangs.

[In my head]: Uhhh... Muffins. (now) Muffly Muffonic Muffins.

[Wishing]: I had band practice every night... And a band that can actually make their own songs - that I like their sound.

[After this]: Ehh... Calling to find rides to my band practice.

[Talking to]: Well... I was talking to Rhonda but eh...

[Eating]: Nothin yet. But there just happens to be a can of ravioliOs next to the keyboard...!

[########]: ... SEPCAIL!

[Some of your favorite movies]: Umm... Funny ones? Matrix too.

 [The last thing you ate?]: A cookie.

[Do you like candles]: Sure

[Do you like incense]: Hell yeah

[Do you believe in love]: Better believe it.

[Do you believe in soul mates]: ...Sure?

[Do you believe in love at first sight]: Nuh.

[Do you believe in forgiveness]: Definitely.

[If you could have any animal for a pet]: Ehm... A liger :D.

[What are 3 places you wouldn't mind relocating to?]: Ohio, Colorado, My Dream.

[What's something you wish you could understand better?]: Me.

[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: Ehhh... Stef.

In the last 24 hours, have you:
01. Cried: Nuh.

02. Bought something: Nuh.

03. Gotten sick: Nuh.
04. Sang: Better than you :). Jokin.

05. Eaten: Yup.

06. Been kissed: Never.

07. Felt stupid: More times than... More. Eh.

08. Met someone new: Nope...

09. Talked to an ex: Never.

10. Missed an ex: Never. (had one.)

11. Had a serious talk: Eh... With myself, yeah. Lol.

12. Missed someone: Yup.

13. Hugged someone: Nuh.

14. Fought with your parents: Nuh, thank god.

15. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: Never

Social Life:
01. Best guy friend(s): Justin, Brad, Jared, Jonathan... Yep.

02.A couple best girl friends: Rhonda, Emily, Amber

03. Boy/Girlfriend?: Never (had one).

04. If no, current dating partner: SOIFNADFKIANGWTF!!!

05. Hobbies: Uhhh... Being artistic (visually and musically).

06. Sports: Not really a sport, but skating.

07. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: Wallflower.

08. What type automobile do you drive: NAUTHING.

09. What type automobile do you wish you can drive: Something...

10. Where is the best hangout: Anywhere cool, as in noone else hangs out there, and it's not very known...

11. Do you have a job: Nuh.

12. Do you attend church: Yup.

13. Do you like being around people: Depends.

Who:
01. Have you known the longest: ...My rents? If you mean friends... Jared and/or Brad.

02. Do you argue the most with: Rents.

03. Do you always get along with: Most but my concious, heh.

04. Is the trustworthiest: Friends or family?? >_<. Probably... Uh. Rhondaaa...?

05. Makes you laugh the most: The last time a single, real person made me laugh... I can't remember.

06. Has been there through all the hard times: Man... Not really anyone except Rhonda, as long as I've known her anyways.

07. Have the coolest parents: Me :P.

08. Has the coolest siblings: Uhhh... Me xD. I guess.

09. Is the smartest: Meh; now I'm sounding selfish o.o;.

Personal:
01. Who is your role model: Me o_o;

02. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: If so, I forget.

03. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: Yup.

04. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: ...I've never really gone after anyone. -shrugs-

05. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: Physically and emotionally, but all in foolishness. Heh.

06. Rather be dumper or dumped: Neither o_o;. Dumped I guess...

07. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": Relationship.

08. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: ...Well obviously I've liked them. If you mean like... all love-like, no.

09. Do you want to get married: Yuh.

10. Do you want kids: Mmhmm.

11. Do you believe in psychics?: ...Nooot realleh.

12. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: Not close to it.

13. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: Eyes, hair?

14. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: My wisdom... Perhaps...?

15. Are you happy with you: Mostly.

16. Are you happy with your life: Mostly...ish.

17. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: My shyness... ?

Boogle.

brandon

brandon

I feel like black and white. I feel like dark, too. -Sigh.- I've been tired, bored, and fat-feeling all weekend. I feel a lil' more lively now, but it's just because I'm listening to music, legs itch, and I just took a shower. I swear I have like mono or something...

Like. Like like like, like likedy liker likenstein! Like-ork-ock-ick-eek, likickiokocko! LIKEY LIKORNO LIKENSTAUSSO! Bufwahahah e.e;.

OH WHEEEEEEEEERRRREE IS MY... Oh. Nevermind.

Rave. Rave rave rave, rave rave rave rave. -Raves on...-

brandon

P.S.: Wizardman got arrested for spazzing out in front of a policeman. Eh, yeah.

...I'm getting fat... Fatter, at least. I need to skate or something. It's no wonder why I've been so depressed lately - all I've been doing is eating and sleeping. -Sigh.-

...Eh, yeah.

brandon

Mmm... It's foggy outside. Not as foggy as I like it, but still. My favorite type of weather, up there next to rain. Dang... It would be *so cool* if it was really foggy and raining lightly... Would seem like the rain was coming out of nowhere - like you *were* nowhere.

...Sigh.

brandon

brandon

Anyways, today was fun. A really cool person hung out with me for the first time, then I got to go see a pretty cool band play, along with a couple of my best buds. But, noone could spend the night x.x... My parents... Are ruining the long weekend. But it's not all their fault, they're just disciplining meh. Egh...

I cried like all last night... It's about time. Err... Actually I just cried last friday. God, what's wrong with me...

I haven't changed the background in a while... Eh, I don't have much inspiration anyways; that's why. Flaaah... I'm really not feeling as happy as my background shows. I just... Blegh >_<. Y'know?? -Sighs.- Anywayen, later.

brandon

<3 This theme. It never fails to make me feel better.

...Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

BAHAH. My wizardman rules. He's got ADHD and some repetitive syndrome or something. xD.

brandon

...-starts knocking back at wizardman XD-

New word thing. I figured, I need to start adding to my vocabulary again. Sure, it's unique, but I've stuck with the same stuff for a while now. Time to change ^^. So, so the latest addition is Freaky Deaky, but I'll always say FKDK. Because I feel like it. And no it won't be considered NET LINGO... It'll be Saber lingo... Err... Linguar. Lingi. xD.

Ehh, other than that, I'm sitting here with my most favorite drink in ze vorld; Mt. Dew Baja Blast. <3. Gotsa go to bed soon... Oh yeah. Da cheat, uhh, what're you gonna do with those boogly framey things? >>;

brandon

A.K.A Thug Gangsta ~ Cookie-G

Mostly, today sucked, but I feel pretty good right now. So I dun care about the past then ^^.

Happymerry valentine's dayish thing. Heh... It's just any other day for me, but schwatever. I guess there IS the exception of coming home to find 14 comments on my xangorio ^^.

Duuude, I'm hungryyyyyyy! Actually I can't tell if I'm hungry. It's a side effect of my teddy bears. But I have chest pains that feel like my stomach acids are burning through the lining... I'm probably hungry e.e;. Gonna make a PIZZAAAA then! Weehee.

...I feel artistic today. This background will probably be exchanged for a new one by tonight xD. I'ma so cray-see.

BYYEEEEE! ^-^;.

brandon

...For whatever reason, I feel like posting (again). So I'll just add onto this one xD.'

OH YEAH. That's what I wanted to say. If anyone wants me to make them a background, feel free to ask. I have my own .com site to host stuff on (www.decidel.com) and I'm always willing to. I love makin' them ^^.

Yeah. Now I'm thug gangsta Cookie-G, and I take teddy bears. TEDDY BEARS!. xD. Weee... Egh, I have nothing else to say e.e;. So, bye (again)!

brandon (again)

I'm tempted to make the gummi bear on fire and melting, and the rainbow turning black and white... The earth cracking open revealing lava and the medicine bottles falling in it >>;. LOL. But nah, maybe some other time...

That wasn't nice o.O;.

I'm taking too much for granted again... I can't let this go wrong...

brandon

Yus, the music is Japanese... But I don't care. I like it's sound, and nothing else matters to me as far as it goes. It's the same band that made the song I always stick with the foggy background ^^.

Omg... This background/music is actually making me feel a lil' better hah. Of course, emo screaming done by myself and an emo post don't exactly add up to be antidepressant. Weee... Omg I'm such a retard xD. Hooo vell.

Bai ^^.

brandon

(http://www.decidel.com/Advice-Shyness.mp3 - Listen to this to get the emphasis on how I felt friday night; the night of the post before this.)

...So embarassing... i lost it

...I know i shouldn't hate myself... but i don't hate my personality or how i look... i just hate my shyness.

-Is how I felt tonight. (Yes that's my voice, and my screaming.)

...Right now in my life I have the most friends I have ever had. Ever.

...Need to pray to him.

brandon

*Edit: And voila! My silhouette ^^.*

Go-... I feel like crawling in a shell and crying for the rest of my life. As if I'm not already in one though. I feel like I could start crying any second... The tears are at the edge of my eye.

I'm sick of the gossip - I don't hear it but it's all that can be there over someone who doesn't talk, nor get talked to. I'm sick of the staring I see in the corner of my eye. I'm sick of myself, and all of my mistakes. Though I can't be perfect, a lot of my decisions seem so futile.

Sigh. I'ma... Go now.

brandon

Anyways. Before that happened I was able to change the background pic and song, luckily. Lol. Flaaah... I'm hungry, but I dunno what I feel like eatin' x_x. I... don't have much else to say. So bye.

brandon

Lol, not really. Sigh. Please tell me why I want to be pissed off at a certain few of my best friends. I have no reason to be, and I'm not, but for some reason... x_x;.

...Dun have anything else to write, except that this band is insane and awesome. Sweetness. G'day mate :).

brandon

LOL. It's hillarious. Yeah, I made it, but still XDD. Sorry heh. I got bored, so I redid the xanga homepage. SO, I shall be off my mighty Wangorians! Stay strong and keep up the premature birth >>;. LOL, I'm such a dork.

Later :P.

brandon

Today was pretty sucky, and I don't really have too much to right about, but that's okay. I should write, because I haven't made a long post in quite a while.

I looove... Stuff. And people. Green apple Jones soda as well :D. So yeah, I made this background just recently... It really isn't that great, but it's relaxing n', if you ask me, it goes perfectly with the song ^^. It all makes me happy.

I guess, I put so much work into my xanga because my artistic side drives me to. The canvas is presented as too good an offer to put down. I'm not really sure I know anyone else who makes and hosts backgrounds for their xanga and hosts the songs on it too... Do you? :P. Soon I could be making my own music as well, if I feel like it.

...Friends. I'm just gonna list out my good, honestly truely friendly friends ^^. Chances are you won't know a lot of them... Whoever you are, lol :P. But that's okay. Alright, let's not forget anyone now...

Justin Rennel

Jared Broddle

Brad Price

Johnathan Brenner

Rhonda Rutschman

Ryan Stark

Emily Olson

Nick Yager

Flannery!!

Ted

Lisa Wulff

Amber

...Dec

STEF omg can't believe it took me that long.

Stef again :P

Jes Curry I guess

Hmmm.... Ben Weimholt, tis a newer one

And a bunch of people I only sorta know. Hope I didn't forget anyone x.x.

Anyways... Yeah ^^. I need a sodaaa. I'm gonna see four of those friends tonight at youth group :D. Schwiggity schwiggity schwaa, that's all I can think of to say. See you later, person.

brandon

Nice big space to look at the background ^^.

brandontis

DONTNEEDTOSIGNMYNAME!!!

Right now I feel like listening to something hardcore that just POUNDS me with screaming, non-stop. I don't know why I'm so pissed off. There's been plenty of things that pissed me off for a reason today, but I've been mad since I woke up - without a reason. GAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. WHAT IS MY PROBLEM.

I WOULD SWEAR MY LIPS OFF BUT... But I'm not gonna be like that.

...

HAH. IM SO PISSED I CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE TO SAY! WTFSOFINEIAIGIOJDADGJDLKFADSLKFJDSLFJDSLF SCHNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA O_O.

I HATE MYSELF. WHY DIDN'T I LOOK AT ANYONE. I DIDN'T SAY ONE WORD. F* ME. >_<.

i don't need to sign my name.

I've become a mere pawn of technological industry... I insist on being independent yet I use something everyone else uses to communicate... Tch. I hate this trap.

brandon

You know that thing way in the back of your mouth that hangs down, you always see it when someone's screaming in a cartoon? Ow. I'm pushing it against the top of my throat with my toung and it hurts. It feels wierd too o.o;.

Dude. I just figured out iTunes can convert anything into mp3... I might actually use my keyboard (musical, think piano/keys) and MAKE some of the music on here now :D. But only when I feel like it.

Anyways, time for pain :D. Weee.

Eric - That last song and this one are both by Jimmy Eat World in their new album, Futures. It's pretty good.

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*Edit: Wow. It hurts when you ask someone what they did all weekened, and they log off. Especially when you can't tell whether they blocked you, and didn't talk to you after the last 5 things you said. :x*

I finally willed myself enough to fix my computer... Not the one I'm usually on. The much better, faster one that's been unused for a year because I was too lazy to fix it (it's a desktop comp) and noone else knew how xD. When I started, I blew the dust off of it and choked on it lol. My parents just bought themselves a new one, so this is pretty much mine. SO YEAH, it's fixed now ^^. Sweeeeetness, I can once again click on any link I want :D. That comp was so bad n slow; it like froze up when you tried to use the internet. T'was a notebook though... -shrugginate-

I've only gotten comments from one person for a while now :\. I guess I have been posting n' changing the background every other day though.

Today was... Just a day. Not too bad though.

Anyways, I'm gonna get my messengers on this comp, annnd download some other stuff so it'll finally be settled, then.  See ya - Whoever you are.

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I wonder if you CAN.

...if I CAN.

-It is all a fake reality.-

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Today was a GOOD DAY. I actually opened up to someone! Lol, it may be just because of their personality but... Yeah. It was coolios ^^. Of couurse... STUFF.

Qacheem! (catch-EEM) o-o;. Yuh. Sorreh lol... anyways... Mmm.

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GUESS WHAT. Today was just as bad as yesterdayyyy! >>;

The song playing here can be played on my cell ^.^. I just wish I could DOWNLOAD it ;-;. It won't let me... I schwant it to be a ringer. Same as my pic on here, I can view it, but not save it to my phone x_x. This pcspix.com might help though... If I can get signed up.

Dang, you think someone who bought a .com site would actually use it. Yeah, www.decidel.com is mine, buttt I only use it to host my backgrounds and music for my xanga >>;. (Note that all the images in here are taken and/or created by meh... Lolz) I have nooo idea what to use the actual SITE for. I used to make games - I was gonna put 'em up to download on there, but... feh. But it was a great deal, 100 bucks for a year with 1 gig of storage and free e-mail hosting ^^. So... yeah I could give anyone their own address of blabla@decidel.com xD. Mine is just @decidel.com, nothing before the @.

Egh... Blarg. See, now I'm lonely... majorly lonely... >_<. Perhaps... I... I dunno. It would be so ideal if I could... Be there...

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Wow. I wanna color it black... that'd be sweet. I guess.

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I'm so messed up. So, so messed up in my head. I subconciously attract attention, it seems, and then I can't support it. I get it, and it fades because I CAN'T TALK BACK.

What the hell... Why do I have so many problems... I have to stop making friends - until I've finally resolved this. But... BUT..! GAHHHHH. CAN it be resolved?!?! I HATE IT.

Why can't I just start talking?!?!? WHY do I have to be so Fed up 'SHY'. It's so painful... How can I talk to people through here but not in real life..?!

WTF BRANDON

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just sick.

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XD

Jokin'. :). Sigh, I have 5 history assignments to finish by Tuesday, and can't do anything with friends until it's all done x.x;. Oh joy, happy 3 day weekend to me, lol. I slept in today cuz my alarm didn't go off... Heh, it was almost a 4 day weekend. <333 on mai background ^^.

I wish I wasn't so shy sometimes... If I wasn't, though, I'd probably be more of a jerk now. Ah wellsz, the past has passed. AH. And in the credits of The Terminal (watched it tonight) there's someone who's name ends with sz. Same goes for Haagen-Dasz! x)). I wanna turn YA (Yewrab) into an inside joke... Like, someone will ask me a yes/no Q and I'll go "YA!" and they'd be like "NUH-UH! LIAR." e.e;;. Wow that's retarded. Flalala... I think I'ma go talk to Flannery or Stef or somethin'. See yas ^^.

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(some major A.D.D. there o-o;;)

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*Rhondaaa I'm still blocked x_x;... It's okay. Just tell me when you've unblocked me ^^. (if you do o.o;)*

Someone offered me a ride as I walked home today. I couldn't tell her face, she was too far away but... a higher voice... anyways, thanks whoever you are :). But obviously I declined... I regretted it of course - My socks and shoes are in the drier and my pants were soaked halfway up my lower leg. I'm used to regretting things though... too many decisions I've made where I regret. Perhaps some were for the better though, and perhaps the decisions 'ave made me into a semi-fool.

I've got two backgrounds I'm working on for this thing and I wanna get one done ><. But I have homework and I've been half-obsessed with a game lately, lol. I think I'm gonna try to find the details, and make a background for my phone ^^. That'd be awrkin! Lol, awrkin xD. YOIT!

Oh yeah, and Rhonda! You heiv me blocked from commenting your xanga, I think... :\. I have a lot I wanna say to yas...

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Many people don't know that I... (TONS of people don't know crap about me, but this is stuff even most of my friends shant've known e-e):

Shower with the lights off occasionally.

Have made a snow angel nude... Just on my back though >>. Yeah it was cold, but crazyfun :P.

Am wearing only one shoe because the other one has snow in it; slipped.

Am in Ohio (hence the snow, all 18 inches of it)

Am pretty emotional

Have never had a gf... Ok I tell everyone that >>.

Keep a lot of my true emotions from even the best of my friends and family, even though I don't mean to nor want to. (I share them online though... I think I've messed myself up x.x)

Play keyboard by ear, memorize songs by heart; Used to and can create 2-D computer games; Love skating, friends, and family.

Care strongly for all of my friends; consider anyone I talk/ have talked to frequently online or in real life a friend, and never try to offend any of my friends.

Hate so many things about myself; those that I've tried, but in vain, to fix as of yet.

Miss Stef. >>; xD.

Have a really good friend I met online that lives in Arkansas that looks like Avril, and is awesome, heheh.

So... Yuh.

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Tuesday I took a black hoody, cut the middle open like a coat/jacket, and cut off the annoying bottom stretchy thing and the logos. Next day, I cut off both sleeves, the pocket(s) because cutting it down the middle ruined it, and i stitched the right sleeve back on with white shoestring. Day after, (yesterday) I stitched the left sleeve on loosely so theres a space you can see my arm in, cut off the stretchy thing for just that sleeve (was going over my hand due to last action), cut a hole where a logo was stitched on and threaded a thin chain necklace for a chain circle around a square hole with a chain X over the opening (upper left sleeve), and used a bigger chain connected to a smaller chain to keep the now "coat" from slipping off my shoulders, and used a bolt & bolt base (looks like a bolt with a flat screw in place of the hole) to hold it in place.     Heheh, I must say I'm proud of myself... it looks good for being done with basically scraps, scissors, and by someone with inept sewing skill. It's already falling apart, though. The holes are slowly getting larger, as well as the one the bolt was put to keep, because I simply cut them with scissors and nothing more. Wouldn't be surprised if it was just ruined by christmas. Anyways. Someone asked me where I got it in the halls xD. Not to my face, but yahz.

I'm gonna make a tight new background for this sight... hah I started a different one a while ago... Just kinda stopped working on it. Consider it "Paused." Anyways, thanks you guys for bein' my friends... Cuz no one else finds this site besides my friends it seems. See ya :).

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I vonder... what are foot knuckles called... surely they aren't foot knuckles, they have to have their own name cuz theres... fingers & toes... wrists & ankles... heels & palms... erf. f... fuckles? o-o;;

Freakeh, if any of you know what Kingdom Hearts is... Yesterday I was eating at planet sub, and they use cards instead of calling out order numbers. We got the king of hearts on a winnie the pooh card. Wacked up. For those of you that don't know what it is, it's a game that is like deep storyline romanticishness mixed with a bunch of disney characters and worlds. I've been playing it lately... Pretty wackeh. And so, I take my leave, but keep your hearts joined and strong, my friends. Don't let your heart be devoured by darkness out of carelessness. See yas.

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